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A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

I tag: drshley, punkerthanvomit, nollykin, frupachino, cholasthehedge, kif_has_spoken, maltrick and math_shoe.

1. Which celebrity would you like to meet and why?
Dead? Edie Sedgwick, I want to give her hugs and then party with her. Alive? Trent Reznor, it would be nice to sit down for a chat with him and have tea and crumpets.

2. What do you do before bedtime?
Wash my face (most nights, unless I'm drunk/off tap), brush my teeth.

3. What is your favorite thing to do on a cold winter's night?
Watch bad TV. Have a hot shower and jump into bed with someone pretty. Drink searing hot black coffee or chai tea, no milk at all.

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
Even though it's not a city, probably somewhere like Newtown where I can find incredible clothes, eat delicious food and have a bar within about 10 metres walking distance at all times. It's the type of place where you DON'T feel like a pretentious git drinking a coffee and reading/writing for hours on end. You just feel sort of average.

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
Extreme introvert until you get to know me. Once I am comfortable with you, I'm very extroverted. I'm a shy person in general, sometimes I cover it up by joking about myself.

6. What gets you through those hard times?
Making plans. Fixing my hair. Doing a perfect make up. Drawing. Taking a "mental health day" from work. Drinking a coffee. Going on epic walks. Shopping.

7. Do you trust easily?
No. I can feel comfortable with people, but I don't trust unless they're very close to me or we share similar attributes.

8. What are your plans for the future?
Today - sit down with Haley and have proper talks. After that - find work doing make up full time. Get the fuck out of my sales job. Look better. Use my brain for the first time in about five years.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
My body, my job, and how helpless and depressed I feel because of them.

10. Do you have a good body-image?
See above - no. I feel ok at my safe weight, but if I go over that I go into meltdown mode. It happened this week and made me realise that I'm not quite equipped to deal with some things, no matter how well I think I'm going. A couple of years ago I was on track to feeling good about myself. I was bigger, but I felt pretty sometimes and didn't really care how much I weighed.

11. Is being tagged fun?
I wasn't, I stole this ;)

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Shlee, Dubs, Haley (Otter!! :D).

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
I stole it from dizzy_jezz. If I had to describe her.. I'd say serene, witty (oh my god your Seek post nearly made me fall over from laughter), and mysterious (but that could be because I don't see you very often!).

15. What’s the last song that got stuck in your head?
That fischerspooner song because I was watching Lasagna Cat.

16. What’s your favorite item of clothing?
My cherry dress, my leopard coat, my new zipper boots :D, my skirt with suspenders, my dark red dress that Shlee bought me and my midnight blue party dress.

17. What's better: to give or to receive?
My rule of thumb - give what I can and what feels natural. I receive the same sort of thing from others.

18. What's the first thing you notice in people?
It sounds awful and lame and completely hippy-ish, but whether or not I get a good vibe from them. After that come the superficial things (which, whether I like it or not, probably influence the vibe I get from people). I notice facial characteristics more since studying make up.

19. Would you have 100% safe sex with a stranger for $10,000,000?
I'd need more information on the circumstances.

20. How often do you eat dinner out a week?
I rarely eat dinner.

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Last year ended with self-assurance. I was confident in my identity, the path I planned to take in life, and the steps I needed to take to get there.

Things went a little haywire this year and I wasn't able to maintain that all the time. Winter of this year ranks up there with the most difficult parts of my life I have had to face (why do I always relapse in winter?). Spring brought more difficulties, but I was tough and got through them, albeit slightly unsettled.

But I'm still here. I'm still breathing. I haven't completely lost control, and whenever I DID lose control, those things lead to better things.

Here are some things I did this year that made it very special

- Learned that it is completely futile putting a label on myself. Putting restrictions on myself never works either. I have relaxed a little about some things.

- Met some incredible people and got to live with them for a few months. The bat cave will live on in our hearts!

- Saw some pretty amazing bands. In chronological order - Tool, The Presets (twice), Peaches, The Butterfly Effect, Gomez, Nine Inch Nails, The Cure, Marilyn Manson, Muse, Daft Punk. OH, and the trips to Melbourne for NIN and Daft Punk will always remain in my mind.

- Held down a full time job while adjusting to new medication, and even won the sales tally last month.

- Went out a lot more, and I now have work buddies to drink with.

- Got rid of all my hair!!!!!

- Most importantly, I fell gut-wrenchingly, head over heels in love. You all know who I am talking about :)



Here are my wishes for next year:

- To be happy in love.

- To see my friends more often! I am sorry I have been terrible at catching up with you all (except on Saturday nights, which don't count as much) but next year I am going to try and fix that.

- To write, draw and read more.

- For all of YOU to be happy.


I have evolved a little bit this year. Just a little bit. Appearance-wise, here is a comparison.



You can't change yourself overnight. You can't force yourself to do it. You can't make the rules and expect to stick with them if it's restricting aspects of your lifestyle you're not ready to let go of yet. Feel the flow. Evolve. Look back in satisfaction when you can give a big "fuck you" to all the things that have been dragging you down.

2007, you have been a rollercoaster ride of a year.